I am taking what consider another large step in my journey as I Transgender woman. Drum roll please!!!! I am going out for coffee. Huge. I know. In reality though, it's the context and pretext of my next coffee date that's the big deal here. Recently, I joined a meet up group in my area consisting of Women who meet in order to network, seek advice, make friends and ultimately empower themselves as Women. Before joining this group, I emailed the group organizer and 'cleared' everything with her before I joined. She knows that I am Trans. She knows I am part-time. She knows I am not trying to ruffle anyone's feathers. Simply, I want to meet, talk, network and make friends with women who know entirely this side of me. In her email she was very cordial and expressed desire to eventually meet. This is very exciting for me!
While she cannot vouch for everyone in the group, knowing she is ok with this aspect of who I am, her support the fact that she going to be there when I go is a huge boon to my femme psyche. Rest assured, if she doesn't show, that's fine. I will be ok. It's not like I haven't been out as a woman, a trillion times! This in mind, like always, certainly not everyone is going to be happy with my choices, with my decisions and with my gender expression. In this life, I need to make myself happy above all. To be clear, my profile clearly states who I am. I am not hiding or pretending to be a genetic woman. While my daily foray into the dating world as a Trans Woman clearly illustrates that not everyone pays attention to what you say, no matter how explicitly (this is good and bad), there is no guarantee that my words are a safeguard and that I will not be labeled a fraud or a freak. But we shall see. Either way, I plan to look, act and carry myself in the best way possible.
I have an appointment as a woman!I am simply looking forward to embracing who I am on a very up close, personal level and most importantly somewhat out of my comfort zone. This is not my first engagement as a woman at
all. What makes this a big step is that I am venturing outside of my usual 'stomping grounds' and to possibly a new level acceptance as a Transgender woman. By all means, wish me luck.
All this aside and on another note, I am already down to just two outfit choices!!! This in of itself is major, major progress.
Stay tuned for the post-event report!!!
